Avery - Twenty One

When we met, three years back
You walked into that class, then later my life
Sunny day, really cold the snow-covered the grass
We never spoke but one day someone told me you may have a crush
Being little kids it wasn't love
Just some butterflies, that later in life turned to a drug
In sixth grade, everything changed
You were distant and you wanted a break
Then throughout the year
On and off like a light
Fake friends turned into regular peers
Halfway through the seventh grade
I started drowning in my fears and all of my tears
One girl after the other, Hoping to fill a void that you left
Now here we are, every time that we talk I tend to feel hope
Then we come unglued
We're stuck in this loop
Running from things, not able to choose
Writing these letters
But what do I prove when none of them make it to you
What is love to you
What is love to me
In love with you, or what I thought we could be
I
Got no closure
Have to find it all on my own
Losing myself
I'm stuck in time as if my body was set in stone
Replay our memories from three years ago
Lookin' at you my heart shatters
More and more I fall down this hole
Stuck in this rut and I'll never get up
But I'll take all the blame anyway
Cause I know that you're hurt, and I'll Always stay
But it feels like, In five seconds three years were wasted away
And the fact I wrote twenty-one letters
Yet none of them made this better
I gotta get up
I'm fed up with feeling like there is no us, is love what we are
I'm in love with your shape, in love with your eyes
In love with your soul, in love with your mind
I'm in love with you
No way these letters I write could explain us or the way that I feel
I know it ain't fair, I talk about you when I rap about her
What is the deal
You haven't texted back and this time I'm worried that you're done for real I
I spilled out my soul
We were good for two days then something cut the rope
Drifted away
The hearts faded and the blue skies grayed
It's all a dream
We weren't laying in our grave, we're asleep peacefully
I guess not, I guess to you we were dead fully
Speaking to you through my music that was never my plan
Writing a song instead of talking to you
That was never my plan
You have issues I know that you're hurting
I'm writing these lyrics about all my hurt
And to think
I'm the reason you're converting all of your mental pain into physical pain
I made a mistake, now it's too late
I get a text and I freeze
It takes me back to three years ago and I feel that winter breeze
But maybe I'm just crazy
You brought out a different me but I've been thinking lately
As much as I text, I feel like I am the only side left
The fact is, I rewrote this song a million times
A thousand miles away in my mind our photo stays up on my desk
Our story is way too complex
I'm stuck in this loop while you look for your next
Stuck in this loop, Running from you, Falling for you
The cycle continues
I sit in the dark
Listening to your voice hoping that things will get better
This is a letter of things that I've kept unsaid
Another letter you never will hear
Your family hates me, mine just asked how you are
I try to forget you, but really it's hard
A vacancy in my heart
I say that I love her but know that I don't
I'm still in half, we had to lose what we had
The feelings I lack I wish that I had
The real you is someone I wanna grasp, It's behind you and back
I'm working for our future together
Does it exist, I probably won't get an answer
Because in your mind I don't seem to exist
So I guess that It's best I take all of my hopes and start drowning them out
Drowning them out
Drowning the hopes of us being together out of my mind
Open your eyes, look into mine
What you will find is somebody who gave their all
And it feels like it never did something
Still, twenty-one letters full of words left unsaid
And twenty-one more, left on read

Written by:
Avery Aldridge

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