UnderRated - Void

Felt a void since I was a little boy
So much noise felt like I would get destroyed
Would dream of death it always made me paranoid
Would try to live but it’s my life I can’t enjoy
Turned 17 but after life would be a mess
It was my b day, few days later grandmas dead
I was so numb don’t even think I got upset
Was all too much, was time to link up with my friends
Would smoke some blunts and act like it was all pretend
My life for months until it got way too intense
I’m at the point where I’ve been wishing life would end
I’m at the point where I wish I would just forget
So much on my mind
So much on my soul
Wish we ain’t run outta time
Just had to let you know
Now I don’t even feel alive
It’s like I lost my lost home
Now I ain’t got no peace of mind
And I can’t find my soul
I've been searching for next best thing
But every time I find myself addressing
All the pain that everything has left me
Maybe God has really up and left me
Maybe I done pick the worst route and this the way that he gone come correct me
Giving up has never seemed so tempting
I ain’t ever really feel this empty
I feel even worse now that you're gone
I finally realize the gift that heaven sent me
All I know is what I took for granted and now that feelings got me tearing heavy
Lately my minds been exploding with notions of pain cause I won’t ever show it
Now you’re in a way better place but my hearts not the same and I can’t seem to focus
Felt a void since I was a little boy
So much noise felt like I would get destroyed
Would dream of death it always made me paranoid
Would try to live but it’s my life I can’t enjoy
Felt a void since I was a little boy
So much noise felt like I would get destroyed
Would dream of death it always made me paranoid
Would try to live but it’s my life I can’t enjoy
19, started growing up
Felt like I was grown but still ain’t know enough
Used to think that everything was fine but some situations started blowing up
Back then I never payed a thought to the only person who would lift me up
Cause my only focus was to live it up
Never focused on the bigger stuff
Time passed and my mama left
Trust it broke my heart but we be getting through it
Everyday is a different story
But what doesn’t change is that I been a shoe in
Change of pace had to rearrange
Had to change my ways I wasn’t really moving
Took the time, who woulda knew I’d find the specific purpose in the why I do this
Felt a void since a little boy
But I’m hella grown had to change it up
I found god and he touched my heart
I couldn’t fathom it and couldn’t make it up
Wish I knew what I know before
It’d be easier to praise his name above
But I came too late and I felt this pain
It wouldn’t go away until I gave it up
Felt a void since I was a little boy
So much noise felt like I would get destroyed
Would dream of death it always made me paranoid
Would try to live but it’s my life I can’t enjoy
Felt a void since I was a little boy
So much noise felt like I would get destroyed
Would dream of death it always made me paranoid
Would try to live but it’s my life I can’t enjoy

Written by:
Barry Harris

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