Kiai - Water In The Ocean

Pack gathered
I'm walking they looking
All eyes on me wool puffer jacket
Moving like they a flock of a sheep
I got a
Tightened fist in my pocket
To hide the pride in me
But the skin is all these
People ever need to see
Diagnosed overthinker I question
Those under nose
Want to know what they know Please
Speak under oath
Is this where I belong
Led to believe the dirt is where I'm from
All long its anything but
Subconsciously they know
That's why I'm forced to forget oppressed
Yes I use that word I'll never digress
The distress when that realisation came
Living day by day seeing it in
All that I partake
Regret the years
Believing fake peers they
Smear the truth
Cause that's what they were taught to do
Surroundings allowing this
Mistreatment, these murderous tendencies
And injustices as far as the eye could see
I believed no one had
Love in their heart for me
Wanting to leave
Cousin stopped me running
A young AKDB
On the tracks to be a case of CAID
Arguments at homes faking in school
Day I choose to follow my roots
I was bombarded with comments
Like I look like a killer on news
But I ain't flinch
A page, I'm turning a new
A new high I arrive
With the title of Kiai
And now I rap and it be a breeze
Maybe cause my rhyme scheme
Be like I stutter when rehearsing my ab ab ab
See Imma flow like water
And when I'm here I spring
My raps gon' move the
Mountains I ain't gotta sing
But enemies knell I'll ring
Believe that
But I can't see past
The traumatic years
Where packs gathered
To me defined fear
And I detail it here
Thirteen, fourteen or something
I got something to prove
Summon my inner thug
That label amongst a few
Engraved in my brain
To a grave is where my fate stay
Through fighting, stealing, killing
Whatever to make my way
Who am I if I disobey stereotypes
How could I be worth knowing
If i ain't the guy they expect
No choice but to have tropes as all of my traits
Do whatever I can to appeal, fake over real
Desperate for a chance to define them right
Holding out for a hand into the criminal life
Make my world my enemy
They done, done it to me
Walking home, days
I'm thinking the nurse gon hit my mama phone
Hi, hello, Is this faith
Hope your sitting, what I'm bout to say
You're going to replay for life
You son done tested hate
Group of kids run up on him
And well he ain't doing great
Please understand you gotta get here quick
His heart rates fading
We ain't got time to stop the bleeding
He pleading
For you to know he's sorry
That he ended up as another
Who followed that story
Scenarios running I gotta survive the path that I chose
Crossing the road They copy I know
I don't walk no more
But If i stop, then that's the end of my line
They feed of fear and I wasn't
About to just give up my life so I
Removed the fist, like I'm revealing a nine
Tried to show a front of strength
An army on the front lines
Backed by faith, no doubt that winning is my fate
Hated all my life, it all down to this moment in time I
Feel the anger brewing renewing my soul
To choose fight over flight every time
Every step every beat of my heart
My heart rate triples
Throughout my body it sending ripples
It tears my mind and doubt creeps in
And being surrounded by fear I find
Myself in the middle
On the fence
What plan am I to commence
Choose defence make amends
Or all out offence
Epitome of my existence
Not knowing where I belong
My believes
Or what makes me, me
So I can sit with my thoughts
And ignore what they gon do to me
I try to walk past peacefully
But they
Remove their fist, like they revealing a nine
They all embody strength
Walk together like the front lines
Backed by hate
No doubt that killing is their fate
Life flash in my eye my last moment in time my
Lonely soul, comes back to repeat
The mistakes that I reap
The mistakes that I
Pack gathered
I'm walking they looking
All eyes on me wool puffer jacket
Moving like they a flock of a sheep
I got a
Tightened fist in my pocket
To hide the pride in me
But the skin is all these people ever need to see
Pack gathered
I'm walking they looking
All eyes on me wool puffer jacket
Moving like they a flock of a sheep
I got a
Tightened fist in my pocket
To hide the pride in me
But the skin is all these people ever need to see
Physical attack, now a verbal dispute
Or onslaught, enemy waiting for me to taught
For an excuse to cause pain
Took it on the chin but there I lay
I raised no fist nor head or voice
What came next, my brothers only know most
A target I stand in a shooting range
I'm lost
Kept my posture, but to what end
For those words for the rest of my life
I'll never forget
Little immigrant, get back to Africa
What has this country come to
A load of black people and a load of polish
Get back to your country
Britain is nothing now
Excuse me dear, there's little kids on the tram
Yeah, it's fine I got a little kid here
Well have respect yeah, have respect
There's little boys here and we don't use those words
Go back to where you come from
Go back to, Nigegra
You guys don't want to work
We have to do the work for you
You're black
You ain't British your black
Polarised identified
On to me like they following
I ponder the pivot point
Of their disgust I must
Chance the way
I must pave the way
And lay a place to make
My kids safe in their home
Polarised identified
On to me like they following
I ponder the pivot point
Of their disgust I must
Chance the way
I must pave the way
And lay a place to make
My kids safe in their home
In their home
Open my phone, a fifteen year old
Abused and exposed forced to put on a show
Stripped, surround by blue they alone
Mentally to be scarred for the foreseen
Powers abused cause egos grow
She fifteen year old a child
So many in denial that this plague
Is what we blacks creates
To justify our lack of undergraduates
Lack of thriving states
The reason that the poorest ethnicity is the black race
If they don't get it now then they never will
They follow myths
Will listen and do what they can to censor this
But I won't ever stop I speak my mind
It's in motion
Satan's work I now defy
Events in my life have began to align
This is me pouring the water in the ocean
For the devil to find
Pouring the water in the ocean
For the devil to find
Cause the thing is you going to
Every night you go out
You'll just be thinking you
Cannot even open your mouth
They'll break the bottle and just stab you with it
Why would you go, why would they do that to you
What are we going what what are we going to do
Having said that, having said that because
All they are going to do
Even if the police know its him
Yeah at least your home but tomorrow you want
To go out again with your
Friends then what will happen
And the day after that and the day after that
And the day after that
You know yeah it's the scary it's the it's
It's it's just the
The fright of just being so scared of knowing
What's this guy going to do to me
So I don't know
And that's just the start
That's just the start
That is just the start and I'm not going to let it go
You were just minding your own business
You were just there with your friends Alex
And it's not fair

Written by:
Alexander Bennett

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