Isse Baby - Weirdest Place

I'm in the weirdest place
I'm always tired but when it's time to shut my eyes I lie awake
Re living everyday again but doing shit a different way
Or thinking fuck it man I would of done that shit the same
You not second guessing you just asking questions like
Maybe we misunderstanding one another's intentions or
Couldn't see the others perspective
I was stubborn, you were tired, we both felt disrespected
So maybe it's better we left it
I was hurt and you were feeling neglected
Hated the version of you I reflected
You changed for the better and I couldn't accept it
Shit I should I forgiven I couldn't forget it I get I get it
And to your credit you said it
So it is what it is
Bitter sweet life medicine we take and we give
Ends how it begins, back to strangers with life's to live
Futures to build cos the world spins still
It don't wait for you to heal or ask how you feel
So ima tough it out or you get left behind
Treasure memories while they still alive cos they fade in time
No matter how bright they shine
Seasons change, no more Christmas lights
Go figure right
We so sick and tired of being sick and tired
There's a limit to your effort that's just the way you wired
But if I said that I would leave you then I'd be lying
Cos I was frightened by the slightest chance of pain that's uninvited
I done did that shit before and I survived it
But this second had me hiding from my self
Cos you weren't saying anything that I hadn't seen myself
I would of used up all my effort but you save yourself
But what I failed to see before is that you saving me as well
We were never happy in that state
We both tryna build a life that extra burden on our plate
Is unnecessary weight
The price for peace is to much for us to pay
You deserve a clean slate and I deserve to feel safe
We both deserve less pain
So I hope our scars fade
Cos recently I been way to close to heartache
It's like I struggle to avoid it
My lil cousin found out her mother never woke up in the morning
And I swear I saw her soul leave her eyes
Asking how someone can die when they were just so alive
So NaNa when you hear this I hope you know I tried
To ease your pain
And I'm not the best with my emotions but I know this won't go away
What I'm tryna say is I love you like we shared a Mother
And when you lost you Mum you gained a brother
And please don't mistake my silence for absence of concern
I just fail to find the words it doesn't it doesn't hurt
I can't always show you cos you my younger siblings
If I fault hold it down than how can you express how you feeling
And I'm a realist so I know this ain't gonna go by fast
But it melts my heart every time I see you laugh
Cos it's that spark that keeps your light bright when it should be so dark
And life can play some shitty cards
And some can wish on shooting stars
But you my dear are miles apart
Child of a single Mother grew up quicker than she should of
You acting better than I would of
And she headstrong, opinionated
Claiming that she right even when she dead wrong
I wonder where she gets that from
And I'm running out of instrumental
But there's still so much to say
I've never felt as ungrateful as I did that day
It almost felt like shame
Spent the night before at J's
Tryna mask paint from a relationship I failed to maintain
Same time other side my Auntie passed away
And if bro I barley pray
But that night I shut the door so no one would see me cry
I closed my eyes and tried to pray for compromise
Oh Lord who lives on high
I won't complain another day
If you help me ease my cousins pain

Written by:
David Issekya

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