QuietKidMusic - Where'd the good times go?

It's hard to smile at the friends who know I'm reeling in pain
Still it kind of feels nice to know they're feeling the same
It's been a while since I felt this way I'm telling them
I said I'm doing fine but I ain't had a meal in a day

I feel the night approaching faster it occurs to me
The type of night that makes me feel so insecurely
The type of night that I can't sleep cause it hurts to think
The type of night I wanna turn my room a murder scene

Hate myself and I won't ever say I don't
Now there's a difference between seeing you and going home
I miss how I would call you, now I just sit in silence
I've found better for myself if I just stay quiet

Between the "miss you"s and " I'm fine"s I'm growing bitter
Cause in my head, I never thought I would have to miss her
There's those who die in silence and those who bleed emotion
I guess that I'm supposed to have the heart that is always broken

These demons start to reappearing in my nightmares
It's hard to beat them cause I know that they don't fight fair
They bring up memories I buried now they right there
Laughing in my face, i run but see them in my side mirror

I have these plans and dreams but know I won't survive the night
And I'll forget that they exist working my nine to five
I'll climb the tallest building overlooking city lights
To see it clear before I'm falling from the sky tonight

Looking back I guess it's self pity
Yet by admitting that I kind of thought that that would fix me
I guess I need some time to focus on the distance
I ran away because I've always been scared of commitment

I wasn't fair to you I never cared for you
The way I always tried to say I was prepared to do
I wanna talk to you I really really miss you
But second chances don't come often so it's time I withdrew

You moved away but I guess that I stayed in place
And when your friends ask, all I am is your grave mistake
I always said I was a safe place
Maybe I can learn to trust my words if I said them with a straight face

But I ain't good at lying, yeah I know it's obvious
The fault is mine because I see the angst I brought on us
Fell for you but on the ground I'm lying right next to a broken us
Try to look away but can't I'm lying motionless

I try to stand but I know I ain't got the strength to
So now the only way to move on is to hate you
And I don't want to cause it means I'm giving up on us
But I'll just prolly find another reason why I'm not enough

"Not enough" "not enough" that's how I'm seeing things
I look around at all my doubt like "hey you're free to leave"
But he ain't going nowhere, we in the same boat
running in place, never knowing where my strength goes

Written by:
Elijah Kelley

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