Genaddy - Who You Knew

You knew my name but not my story
You see my smile not my pain
You notice cuts but not my scars
Beneath this shell I'm not the same
You knew my name but didn't know my story
You see my smile not my pain
You notice cuts but not my scars beneath the shell I'm not the same
I tried to learn to deal with the intentional torment
By raising rent, but they would pay it never late with a cent
Got more intense with time my mind entwined in every sentence
And led my head to fend off every thought I had against it
I call that self defense
I take a breath and hold it deeper when I make amends
Cuz I don't owe a breath to anyone who wasn't there or my friend
And so I hold it in
Yeah I would suffocate before I stay the same again
You knew my name in school but you didn't know I'd play the game
And play to win
You kept your distance
That's okay
Cuz everyone who talked behind my back would never know the pain
Half the grade would stand up
And be claiming that they were so close to me
But I didn't see a face when I lost faith in everything I'd seen
And questioning the way I breath
Like why do I do it if I am nothing
But known locally as weird
A little awkward and stocky
A sloppy artist now, possibly
Kamikazed his confidence cuz he got nothin off of it
If he's competent
He'll stop but I wouldn't bet on it nah
Cuz I'm not lettin off the pedal
Till the pedal is gone
And what's a riddle mean to me if I would question it all
You knew my name but not my story
I am the reflection of the damned
Water washed the footsteps in my sand
When I walk I'm pacing out my plan
Outlined in chalk so when I expand
I can erase it and color more space in and be inna place
Where I'm feeling famous I don't need to be but its feeling amazing
The realization my way to escape
Is to cover the pages with what I made and put in a cadence
And cover the beat with the bass
Hitting a homer and running the plates
Triple A nah I'm in majors, but
Why is it so wrong to want a better life
A chance to finally give back to people that had made mine
Didn't give me money but attention and time, when I die
I know that they'll be standing there with me at their side
I wanna give my family more
Not think about what I can't afford
Not rent not bills not grocery stores
Not having a kid I can't support
When I have em they're gon be my world
My map my atlas and my moral
Compass
From this
They're gon grow my love it's
Somethin you won't be able to stomach
And no one is able to take it from us
I created my own summit
That's a climb I'll gladly take
The Everest of my own faith
The reverent for what I made
Malevolent from hell I've paid
To pave the path and now I'm saved
And now I'm gracious for mistakes I've made
Embrace em
Like their family
The clarity of humanity
Is there for you don't stare at me
You knew my name
But not my story
You see my smile
Not my pain
You notice cuts
But not the scars
Beneath the shell
I'm not the same
I'm just hiding beneath lies
Fake persona that I describe
Just another way that I feel
I'm drifting in this tide
Bye
And I don't think it's ever gonna need to be said
But for a first album
Every doubter I had
Is dead
So listen in
Cuz this ain't the end
This is only the beginning
Of what I planned

Written by:
Ryan Smith

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Lyrics © O/B/O DistroKid

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