ShepDaddy - Within Yourself

(I was upset when I made this)
(I'm sorry)
(Aria Made This)
At the of the end of this long day
How do you wanna be remembered?
The struggles of life get in the way
What would they say if I surrendered
I haven't told my story in a while
It's just been another book on the shelf
Reminiscing on the days standing in the mirror
Tryna be the better man, is the war within yourself
How did this start, it started with me
I was a misfit kid, who turned into an outcast
The biggest mistake I made and please don't miss it
I threw away the truth, and hid behind the mask
I was into coins, the popular kids went to parties
I started to go silent, whilst my friends were getting louder
Escaping cruel realities, I truly thought this shit was healthy
Why did mumma cry when no-one came to birthday
Blowing out the candles alone, yeah of course it hurt
All because I was different, and didn't fit in with the world
Every time I watch the fireworks over the bridge
I just hoped the next year, was better than the last
What was the breaking point?, was it the sharpened insults
Was it the beatings, the bruises, the tears, or the wish to be someone else
It was everything and more, I couldn't take this anymore
How many punches can you take before you ask for help?
So I sold out, I chose popularity over myself
The people who were supposed to care enabled this choice
I became the thing I promised my family I wouldn't be
The people who really cared, we're telling me that I changed
For the worse, never for the better
She saw through the façade, she gave me a letter
It was a quote that cut me, cut through the lies
Has anything you've changed; made you feel any better
The distance between the truth and a lie got bigger
The lie I was continually portraying was getting clearer
But nobody I was hanging around seemed to care
But does anybody really care when they're drowning you in liquor
The machine began to take on a mind of its own
I'm screaming for help, but they think it's a joke
So much Blue Alize and sprite I'm stumbling down
Two months of my life I was drunk, don't friends hold you down?
My dad picked me up on that final night of drinking
He asked about my night, I said it was amazing
But the truth about it was I was dying inside
And I was going home, to tie a noose and be left hanging
I held myself together, and I'm thankful for that
I was being something I wasn't, just trying to change me
Being popular made Daddy, but took away Aidan
Never stop being yourself, cause changing nearly killed me
At the of the end of this long day
How do you wanna be remembered
The struggles of life get in the way
What would they say if I surrendered
I haven't told my story in a while
It's just been another book on the shelf
Reminiscing on the days standing in the mirror
Tryna be the better man, is the war within yourself

Written by:
Aidan Shepherd

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