BiGG MaTT - Zzz

I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of sighing
I'm tired of lying
That I'm okay
When I really don't know what to say
I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of sighing
I'm tired of lying
That I'm okay
When I really don't know what to say
Do I tell the truth
That I wanna kill myself
While I spit in the booth
Or that cutting still sounds like an escape
Line my room with police tape
Yeah I started at the bottom
And I scraped and I scraped
But * still isn't taking shape
Maybe leave a message on the videotape
Momma I'm sorry, I'm trying
But all the demons inside me are winning
What an uncomfortable feeling
To try not to
But I keep on sinning
So I have to keep restarting at the beginning
Life's just dragging me
Screaming and kicking
It's sickening
This alcohol I'm binging
The meds I stopped taking
Man I'm slipping
Man I'm skipping with the devil
This shit is very evil
I don't do needles
But this shit is still lethal
The way my brain works should be illegal
I need some freedom
I'm beaten, I'm bleeding
God dammit I'm a heathen
I'm broken in pieces
And this is the season
These thoughts have been teasing
God dammit
So now I'm out on my own
And these the seeds that I sow
With emotions that I never show
Like love
For my family
For my friends
Like the friends that I help
Then they put me on the shelf
I'm not getting back what I put in
I wanna leave this life with a sit in
Replace me with something better
Someone who's a go-getter
Instead of writing rhyme after rhyme
But never recording cause I don't got the time
I'm too busy smoking time
And being self deprecating
Should I die or not, I'm debating
My energy's draining
Cause I just keep deflating
It's intimidating
It's intimidating
I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of sighing
I'm tired of lying
That I'm okay
When I really don't know what to say
I'm tired of fighting
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of sighing
I'm tired of lying
That I'm okay
When I really don't know what to say

Written by:
Matthew Bellinger

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